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| i'm going to explain something on here because no one else understands it, and i need a place to vent
people ask me all the time why i'm friends with tim
it's no secret all of the stuff he does/gets away with
what people don't understand is how irreperably changed my life has
been because of him, me and him have been friends since i was in 8th
grade and he's got me in trouble a couple of times, but he's gotten me
out of trouble so many more times, he's taken the blame for stuff i've
done, he's helped me through tough times as much as i've helped him,
and no matter how many people call him a "low-life" or how many people
wonder why i hang out with him other than for pure entertainment, i
know the real side of him, he's been the truest person in the world to
me, and has never lied to me about anything (as hard to believe as that
may be), i would, and actually have, risked my life for him, and he
does the same for me all the time... people think that just because a
person doesn't conform to their perception of society/perfection that
they have the right to judge him... granted some stuff he does is
illegal, but does any of that make him less of a friend to me? I have a
lot of other friends, a lot of other friends that i would call my best
friends, but he has been the single rock for me, the one person i've
always been able to turn to for just about anything you can think of...
before i knew tim i had no sense of adventure, now that i know him, and
that i've been through countless unbelievable situations with him over
the years and all the crazy shit that we've done(seriously... if you're my friend you've probably heard
stories) i feel so absolutely independent and ready for anything life
will throw at me... except one thing... and that's losing him
the sad fact of the matter is that him and matt are about to be gone, this time more than likely for a really long time...
i can't really say on here for obvious circumstances what exactly
happened and why they are in trouble, but it's so completely rediculous
that i just feel terrible for them
seriously i probably care about that guy more than anyone else i know,
he's more than a friend to me, he's a brother, he's seriously as
important to me as my grandparents (whom i live with), and he's much
more important to me than my own parents since they do absolutely
nothing to support me...
it's do or die with them right now, and it just sucks coming to the realization that i'm probably losing my best friend...
here a few pictures of us i was looking at and thought i'd post...
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is this all life is?
when you're young it's like a beautiful morning, you have the whole day in front of you... and you can accomplish anything... then you grow up, go to high school, try to get into a good college, to get a decent job, so you can make money to do what your parents did for you and repeat the process all over again... only it's your kids this time.. and your watching them grow up... you get older, retire, see your grandkids... and then the sun starts to set on you...
if this is all it is, then what is "success"? what does everyone strive for in their lives?
is it monetary success, being able to live in luxury? is it fame, having everyone know who you are and what you do? or is it just every little moment you have with your friends and the people that are close to you that make life worth living?
what is life's calling? what does it mean to you? everyone's is different... and the path to "success" varies depending on who you are...
ask yourself those questions, and see what your answer is
i still don't know my own answer... it was just on my mind and i felt like sharing it
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that was my post from back in april... i was bored, and decided to come back and read some old posts... i suddenly had a rush in my mind... the meaning of life? i wouldn't go that far... but i figured this much out... everyone holds their own key to unlocking life's secrets... it's finding this key that's the hard part... i think you have to believe in something so much that you would die for it... if there is something out there you would die for, then that will lead you to what life is really all about... would you die for your god to protect his word? would you die to protect your country? would you die for a girl that you were in love with? it's at this moment when you realize that you would sacrifice the ultimate gift that was bestowed upon you... which is life itself, for something, that you can finally see something greater, you can see beyond yourself and towards a better future... because if more people were honest and devoted themselves to something, think about what all we could accomplish... there would be no wars... because if our so-called politicians were dedicated enough to helping the good of man-kind like they say they are they woulnd't find the need to kill to do so... there would be no more poverty, because the people making millions of dollars a year would find a way to help the impoverished make a living... to show them that there is something beyond the little that they have... that there is a good in people... maybe then everyone could really start living... this is all just me thinking... but really... think about it yourself... if you were really willing to sacrifice your life... the best thing you've ever gotten, the very thing that defines everything on this earth... you could do anything... so find something that you love... and be active... the problem with society as a whole, is that we're too afraid of the perception of others and we don't dedicate ourselves to what we love... if we could only get by this, we could accomplish anything we put our minds too... and that, is what i call truly beautiful...
well i hope someone read all that, sorry it was long but... it just got me thinking and i had to share it...
peace
- Chris -
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| http://www.myspace.com/beyondtheblackandwhite
there is my myspace... i just made it a few days ago so it's not finished or anything but it's a start, so if you want to talk to me, just go there or i/m me or something because
i'm done w/ xanga and all of its bullshit... sorry
peace
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| okay so last night was possibly the best ever
thanks to aryn, mike, and andrew
i got to go clubbing w/ my 3 best friends, lol, what could be better than that... honestly?
well, bob dylan might, but that's another story...
saturday i took the ACT, it wasn't too hard, cept for part of the math section... i've really forgotten geometry... then i worked, they have me working as a waitor now... so i make a lottttt more money... 
last wed. i also went to nashville, this time it was w/ britt, and mike... we went to see some show at rcktwn and walked around 2nd avenue... here are pictures i stole from brittney
i'm big bear... i'm brother bear... and i'm lil bear... mthrfckrs
ahhh... too much fun...
today my dad and my sisters are coming up from georgia to visit...
i don't really get too see him much, and he hasn't come up here in about 3 years so... it should be interesting spending time w/ him i guess
peace and enjoy the heartwell ending
- Chris -
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| i wrote this at starbucks the other day on a napkin...
Words can't compensate
For the difference in miles between our states
Even though you're gone
And I know it's been too long
My feeling for you is still there
And believe me when i say i still care
If there's still a spark or maybe a flame
Just let me know and i'll jump on a plane
The thought of you alone is just too much to bear
Without the scent of your beautiful hair
Please, just let me know
And I'll be there to show
You how i really feel
And that my love for you is real
yeah there's my failed attempt at being poetic...
anyways i've had a pretty kick-ass week... merrit's party was the most fun i've had in a really really long time... wow that was sooo incredible... too many good quotes and good memories to name off...
i'm out
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